I am creating this blog… as my new life is being recreated every day. The changes I have been through in the last four months have been amazing, yet the changes in the last few weeks have been spiritually incredible.
Four months ago, I decided that marrying the man I had been with for six years was the wrong choice. The time between the awakening and actually leaving our house was about Ten days. Extremely quick, I know, but once the reality of the situation had showed itself, there was no other choice. My girls Tobi and Lily came down from Port Townsend and helped me move back into my house on the East side of Portland…Oh The Purple House… so good to be home. I had been living on the west side of town for three years, and to be quite honest I hated it the whole time, it was never “Me”. Being home was Fantastic.
The transition was lovely and smooth, at-least in the beginning. The sense of freedom was incredible, I was remembering things about myself that had been missing for years, important core things that I had given up in my Six year relationship, things that should have never been given up. Kip (my ex) and I, went through about four weeks of being friends, yet sleeping together a couple times a week was probably our biggest downfall . Then I moved on, and things got pretty ugly for about three weeks… though trust me, we do not need to relive the details of that experience.
I spent the majority of the summer on the North Oregon Coast, Manzanita/Nehalem area, one of my Home’s sense I was about Six years old. The Coast was amazing medicine for me, a safe place filled with caring beautiful people. I slowly picked myself up, and put my spirit back together, a process necessary for the journey I began about Three weeks ago in Port Townsend Washington.
So…Three weeks ago~
I went up to PT with Six other strong beautiful women for Kinetic Weekend, and had such a great time! But the best thing that happened was meeting my friend Adam Young, an incredible spirit who has inspired my journey in almost unspeakable ways. He is such an amazing Star, and helped me to realize the possibility that I hold as a Shinning Star! One of the most interesting outcomes of this realization is the decision to live my life as if I only have two years left on this planet; Now I’m sure you can imagine in your own life, the things that you would change if you knew you only had two years left to live…possibly everything…which as you may have already guessed is exactly what I am doing!
Every single thing about my life has changed, from my ideas of money to spirituality, what I truly hold dear to my heart and the true things in this world that hold any type of meaning…and of course I would like to point out that those thing will inevitably be different for everybody. But for me, here’s how they have landed…
All of the material things in my life no longer hold much meaning, including: nick-knacks, furniture, my Subaru outback with dual moon roofs, my house, my bed…they are all going to find another home. I was originally going to wait until June to sell my house, yet last Wednesday, while I was on my morning run, it just came to me, as clear as day… Today is the day! I went home took a shower and called my mortgage broker for a Real Estate agent recommendation. After a couple of of experiences, I very solidly decided on a man named Tim Shannon. The decision was another clear one, like leaving my marriage and selling my house. I am quickly learning to trust myself in a way I never had before… and it feels incredible. I now know there are no wrong turns in my life. In being awake and aware I know that everything will work out, I am truly taken care of! To follow my heart, is to find my way home to the Stars!
Now you may be asking yourself what my next step is? World Travel my friend… world travel. When my house sells I am going to use a large portion of my money to embark on the adventure and journey of my lifetime! I have a whole list of places I want to experience including; The mountains of Japan, Guatemala, New Zealand, Ireland… the list just continues. The timing and placement of these locations is yet to be known but I have great faith that as the time comes, the answers will be as clear as everything else has been for me.
At the present moment: I am heading back up to Port Townsend tomorrow, Monday, to celebrate my sisters (Mercedes) birthday along with a few other encounters with loved ones. Then Thursday I will start the process of painting, cleaning and preparing my house for sale. Wish me luck on a speedy sale to fantastic people!
