As the smoke settles, as I am slowly able to begin breathing again, as I creep toward knowing myself in this new life, I am constantly surprised at the ability to move and flow with the ever breathing, every moving, entity of Change, that no one can escape, that we all have to find our own way of moving with, in ease or opposition, which ever makes sense at the moment.

      In the last week so many things have become clear to me. Lets start with the “Big One” My House. It has come to the point where I must make some sacrifices,there is olny so much time, money, and emotional energy available in this game of waiting, hoping, praying, that something will turn, someone will want the house. But it’s not moving, that someone has yet to show themselves. So next month I will lower the price quite a bit in hopes of just getting rid of it. At that point I will have  just enough money to get myself completely out of debt, and have a clean fresh start. Minimal living expenses will then give me the ability to save money and travel in the winter. And live a wonderful life here in Port Townsend… Wow! You may say to yourself, that’s a lot of change in the last four months. From Living in Portland, to giving all of my things away, to traveling the world, to know be staying in Port Townsend with no savings. And amazingly I’m just totally cool with the whole situation. Every step has been necessary, every move extremely relative to where I am now…Which I must say, may be the best place I have ever been in my life, mentally and spiritually, not to mention geographically (:

       I’m am completely in love with my living situation right now. Living in my little trailer, on the farm in town, with windows that seem to capture the sun, every morning, just for me. I have found some quite space in my life that has been much needed for some time now. I have been sitting in the field at night. Its so quite, with all the stars dancing above. I am there with just my thoughts and the intriguing symphony of frogs.

      I am coming into a place in my head and heart where I finally have the ability to look back on my relationship with Kip, on my relationship with  myself, and take inventory of behavior and emotion, removing blame, cleaning up lost or muddy perception. Who was I before my life with Kip? Who am I now, in my new life? Which traits or habits of personality should be left behind, and which should join me in the future. How do I want to portray myself in this world, spiritually, and in this community, professionally?

   I am getting really excited about the possibility of joining the professional community here in Port Townsend.  Finally coming back to my love for the art of landscape design, for the incredible healing possibilities of working in the earth again. I am planing on getting on with a landscape crew for the summer, then slowly working my way into more of the design aspect.

     I am still playing music, and loving it. My favorite bar in town, the best bar in the world, Sirens, recently asked me to play on a Friday, which I am totally excited about. That is the one place I really wanted to play when I got back to town, and here we go!

                        Life Rocks, I keep smiling, and everyone keeps on Truckin’